this is all based on the assumption that he is willing to get back together with me.. from abbey though, it appears that in time when we are both "mature and no longer as busy", he'll take me back.. hmmm... how presumptous of him.
so before i consider any of the what ifs on that thought, i should remember that:
- he doesn't call me even when we were together, he didn't call me after i called it quits to even convince me to give it a try.. and last and most significant: he doesn't communicate with me now.
- i am not as domesticated as i was back then... really. dunno what got into me then when i cleaned his house, cooked for him, washed the dishes. at least i didn't do the laundry.. hehehe.. (there's still hope for me, after all)
- my fascination for malling, shopping, the movies and eating out is really way out of his interest and field.
- though we haven't really tried it all the way, i doubt if he and i are compatible sexually (derived from my uhh.. limited physical interaction with him)
- although he made me feel inept, inadequate back then (which is actually my fault for letting my confidence submerge), i doubt if he'd be interested in the real me now who will question his will and decisions
- wellllllll, it was love at first sight for me then. unbelievable as that may sound. which is actually what makes it so precious to me.
- but relationships are more than that. it has to be more for it to last. there has to be compatibility and compromise.
- blah blah blah.. it seems this list is endless.. but one last note...
- there is olie now.
i do hope my mind (and heart, however it is involve in this.. hehehe) clears up pretty soon. im messing up a good thing with olie right now.
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